"Because we know that this extraordinary day is just ahead, we pray for you all the time—pray that our God will make you fit for what He's called you to be, pray that He'll fill your good ideas and acts of faith with His own energy so that it all amounts to something. If your life honors the name of Jesus, He will honor you. Grace is behind and through all of this, our God giving Himself freely, the Master, Jesus Christ, giving Himself freely."
2 Thessalonians 1:11-12, The Message
These verses were salve to my distressed soul today. As much as I hate to admit it, in my quiet moments the past few weeks, I've been stressing over the calling God has given me. But in this passage, I'm humbled. Not that I was "puffed up" before, but I wasn't depending on His ability to meet my needs.
I've felt inadequate in my calling as a mother, my calling as a wife, my calling as a writer, and some brand new callings as a speaker and short-term missionary.
Lots of tears. Lots of self-pity. Lots of defeated thoughts. All in cycles, in my quiet, private moments with the Lord.
But I've chosen to continue speaking His Words of faith, privately and publicly, because I know them to be true. His promises don't stop being true just because I'm not feeling them true. And all of these thoughts of inadequacy? Well, I'm not happy I gave into them, but it could be that it took me getting to that place in order to bring my will into submission with His.
The truth is, I'm not able to do this mom and domestic thing--IN MY OWN STRENGTH.
I fall short as a wife...really short--IN MY OWN THINKING.
I have so far to go as a writer, and I'm intimidated by others in my field and genre--IN MY OWN ABILITY.
I really question whether I can do the new, out-of-my-comfort-zone ministry stuff--IN MY OWN STRIVING.
Then God gave me these verses when He knew I was fully ready to receive them.
God will make me fit for what He's called me to be. HE will fill my good ideas and acts of faith with His own energy so that it all amounts to something. If my life honors the name of Jesus, He will honor me. Grace is behind and through it all.
So, my friends, where are you on this journey? You can share if you like, but feel free just to pause & ponder His Words, taking the time to ask yourself the hard questions. Use my prayer as your own if you wish. I hope that in the end, you & I will choose to constantly depend on this One who gave Himself freely, the One who is faithful to strengthen us according to His will.